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Well... i really don't post much here anymore... mainly because i've moved over to tumblr - so go ahead and follow me there if you actually read this. ^.^

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time for a metaphor...or is it an analogy....?

This old black dog is hounding me
It waits ‘round the corner and hides in the trees
I feel the chill of something blown in on a breeze

In the light of a cinema screen I hide
Laughing I only feel empty inside
Crying means nothing, I’ve nothing to say
I wish I could kick this old black dog away

And the worst part is knowing my part in it all
Yeah the worst part is knowing its nothing at all

Oh if I can pull myself together I’ll try
I can’t explain the tear that sits in my eye
I try to outsmart him but somehow he knows
Wherever I am, that fucking dog goes
I’ll kill him the next time I swear I won’t fail
I’ll kick in his ribs and I’ll rip off his tail

And the worst part is thinking it’s something it’s not
Yeah the worst part is thinking it might never stop

Oh if I can pull myself together I’ll try
I can’t explain the tear that sits in my eye

And the worst part is trying to explain it to you
The worst part is knowing there’s nothing to do

Oh if I can pull myself together I’ll try
Oh but I cant explain the tear that sits in my eye

If I can pull myself together I’ll try
Oh if I can’t pull myself together I’ll die

it's all about TOAST!

So, my mum said my blog is too depressing. So i'm going to do a post/list about something that makes me happy... TOAST!


1.
First of all, this is amazing - at this website you basically pay money to have your name, company, advertisement, or just something random... written onto piece of TOAST and then posted on their website. That's pretty interesting/weird/AWESOME.... if you ask me. If i actually had money - i would absolutely get my etsy url written on one (zozietoast) buuuut... since this is the first time i've seen the site - i do wonder how great it gets word out. Anyway. That's No. 1.

2.
This is just ONE toast shirt (FrenchToast by the tiny fig) but there are MILLIONS out there. This is something i want to do myself - make toast shirts that say silly/funny stuff on them. Peoples - toast shirts are win! Anybody wearing a toast shirt is automatically my friend. lol. I saw a strange one today - it said "Make love, not toast".... my plan is to reverse that shirt for myself "Make toast, not love." Hahaha.... OH yeah - i'm obsessed, it's official.

3.

YEAH TOAST!!!!!!!!!!! (YouTube Clip)

This is a clip from a radio program (somewhere in america i assume) which i found a couple years back... just recently someone gave me a virtual boom box which played this song over and over... and it reminded me how awesome it was... lol.

4.
TOAST PHONE! Okay, it doesn't really look very much like toast.... but it definitely looks like a toaster.... WHATEVER, i think it's cool. Well hey - they have a burger phone, a banana phone, a LIPS phone... they were BOUND to bring out a toast phone. As seen on several websites over the last few months, toast is the HOTTEST thing around these days. (I would just like to make it known, i absolutely started the toast craze... while everyone around me was just cashing in on the cupcake phase, i was totally down with toast people).

5.
Okay - i can;t believe i didn't know about this until recently, and i've been checking ebay to find some of these. Although, they do sell them on Amazon. TOAST BANDAIDS! I mean really - if someone had a "booboo" and you slapped a bit of toast on it, as if they could even FATHOM being upset anymore! TOAST CURES ALL!!!!! *siiigh* is there anything it can't do?!

6.

Toast necklaces are something i used to make and wear myself! i first got the idea when i saw a sculpey waffle necklace (i made one for my lovely friend Bec!) and ended up making a whole variety of things and putting them on etsy - toast was just one of them... but there are loooots of different kinda of toast necklaces that you can buy - the cute ones with the faces, or the more realistic ones that seem to have little burns and melted butter on them. Tre cute!!!


Well - there are many many more toasty things i could put on this list - but i'm getting kind of annoyed that i can't actually buy any of them myself, so for now i shall stop. ^.^ Hope you enjoyed the toasterific ride!

facebook = fail?

I like this video. I'm not getting off facebook - but i still like this video.

you should watch it.

selfish blog of self pity...

i'm finding it very difficult to explain how i'm feeling right now. at first, it felt like there was a huge weight lifted off me... like i could breathe again... but that weightlessness has quickly been replaced by a feeling like i'm being suffocated somehow from the inside... and nobody can see it. I have no idea how to explain it better than that. It's like someone has presented me with a cocktail, mixed out of confusion, anger, fear, hope, despair, and anxiety... with just a dash of depression. I'm getting waves of emotion, rather than just a constant feeling. I can be laughing and feeling hopeful one moment, and then suddenly everything smashes down on top of me and i can't get back up. What is actually the point of all this? What was the point of all that? What the hell am i doing? ... why?

This probably doesn't make sense to you - it doesn't really make sense to me to be completely honest, but i have to say i feel very alone. I'm not saying i'm any worse off than anyone, i'm not saying my situation is more horrible than someone elses... all i'm saying is that at this very moment, i don't know if i'm going forward, backward, standing still, spining in circles, or falling in a heap. Maye all of the above... and none, at the same time. And on top of that... i feel like no one is understanding. People are offering advice. People are getting angry. People are getting upset. People are making soothing noises.... but nothing is what it's meant to be.

*sigh*

Feeling kinda positive.

For all your pessimists out there....

Damnit. Why did i try to log in.

I just found something i didn't want to. It made my heart hurt in a place i didn't know existed.... so to turn my mood around, i googled marylin monroe....

*sigh* she's a whole lot of awesome.



"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."

— Marilyn Monroe